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i start back to work next week. i have been off since may 17th. i know i only work 2 days a week and should just shut my yap...but i don't wanna go!!!!! BC(before carson) i was an veterinary nurse and i LOVED my job. everyday was another animal story, some very sad, but most pretty happy. i did everything:vaccines,taking blood,anesthetizing animals,prepping them for surgery and so on. i was only expecting to leave for 8 weeks after i had carson. i had it in my mind that i was not going to be one of those moms that couldn't leave their child. HA!!! even though i had one of my best friends(whom i have known since i was 7) watching him, i couldn't stand it. i was not happy. so i quit to be a stay at home mom. well my depression came back full force. i was a recluse. would not leave my house for anything. i would do my mom duties, then cry all day. shower?! not today thanks! finally i went to my doctor and got put back on anti-depressants( i had been off them for about 6 years at that point). then i enrolled us into gymboree class and carson was 13 months at this time. i met new friends and slowly started living in the real world. still i have major anxiety issues. i hate meeting new people and i swear EVERYONE is staring a me. i am still on my "happy pills" and most days are better than others.
ok...i have rambled on and on.
by the way, through all my ups and downs, my husband has been my security blanket...my rock.
so...anyway...back to the original topic. i start tuesday back at the pre-school i work at. i will have babies from about 9 months to 14 months! the first few weeks are pure hell. my teaching partner are always like"WHY DID WE DECIDE TO COME BACK"!!!!???? but after about a month, the babies start liking us, then of course i start to fall in love with them too! someday i will go back to the animals, but i like only working twice a week.
off to go read...i started the book"Twilight" yesterday and i am almost done...quick read and very enjoyable~peace