have u missed me?

i think that i actually only have 1 reader(thanks kim). but alas, i will start to write more just in case i have a few lurkers who have yet to show their support. well in 2 days it will be thanksgiving and i will be at my grandmothers house. yay... without my brian...he has to stay home...long story. but i will be taking carson and we will have a grand time. EXCEPT that means, without brian(who is my rock,security blanket and all around super hero) i will have to face the evil step-dad alone. he is the reason for every mental problem i have. he is the biggest ass! He is actually a drunk who has managed to wreck my life in so many ways. not to mention my poor mother....but that too is a whole different story. so wish me luck and loads of courage that i am sure i will need!! will chat more on my return. HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!

happy and frustrated all rolled into one!!

let me start out by saying...WAAHHOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! YES WE CAN!!!
i am beyond excited to have Barack Obama as our new president elect. i feel such a surge of emotions. but let me take you back to my son's end of the year baseball party last night.
boy #1- we voted for mccain because he is a christian.
girl #1- yeah, i don't like bara...that other guy.
me- why don't you like him, you don't even know him.
girl #1- well that's what my mom told me to say...we don't like him.
boy #2- (chiming in from the next table) yeah he is bad.

cut to me looking at my child then my husband. my son looks sad and my husband gave me the "well we do live in tx...what do you expect" shrug.
i had to go home and tell carson that yes some people like john mccain and that he is a good man,but his dad and i like obama and his ideas more. i also told him not to worry about what the other kids said because HE IS JUST A KID!!!! what upsets me is the lies these people told their children:he is a muslim(which he isn't, but if he was it still wouldn't matter to me), he is going to take everyones money away, he is going to make all the white people slaves,he hates America...i mean the list goes no and on.... come on people we live in 2008!!!!
YES WE CAN!! YES WE CAN!! YES WE CAN!! YES WE CAN!! YES WE CAN!! YES WE CAN!!